Trials & Misunderstandings. Mother
Clare. June 5th, 2023
Dear
family, the Lord give you courage and hope as we navigate the difficult waters
of these times.
So,
lately we have had a situation, it is a little unnerving sometimes when you
feel that you are not quite understood or on the same page. So, I have been
struggling with some feelings, a couple of different sources and I thought,
‘you know, this could just be the devil tweaking my imagination.’ I said ‘Lord,
please tell me, is this my imagination?
And
the Lord began to speak to me. He said, “What you are feeling is the discontent
of a chosen soul. Their heart is not totally for Me and My agenda. They are
still very attached to the world. There is nothing you can say or do that will
change this; it is a work for My Holy Spirit. In the meantime, pray for them
and give Me time to work on their hearts.”
And
may I say here we are, April twenty-first, twenty-second, twenty-third,
Satanists, one of their favorite times to torment Christians. We knew this was
coming, we knew there would be some kind of problem or difficulty at this time
because it is that time of the month and everyone in the Satanic community is
getting ready for Walpurgis Night, May first, which is something akin to
Halloween, as far as the importance of that day.
So,
the Lord continued, “This world is a lonely and hard place, and the soul longs
for the purity and innocence of little children, for the peace and contentment
that can only be found in Heaven. There is a battle going on for this soul and
it is in My hands. Do not allow this to distract you, it is not about you, it
is about pride and self-will, and abandoning all to love only Me.
“This
is very hard for some souls. You were deliberately raised as an abandoned
child, alone in the world. This was allowed to form you to be fearlessly
committed to only one thing, eventually when you gave up all your agendas in the
world, you let go and made your only duty, your only reason to live, Me and
executing My will for souls. There are others raised differently and to them
family and parents are everything. For these it is truly a bitter struggle to
let go of all.
“You
are weak and fail many times, but I allow this only to show others how I am
loyal and waiting in every second of the day to restore them when they fall. I
did not choose you for this job because you were particularly bright and
someone to be looked up to. There are those who are still admiring and wanting
to follow the bright Christian stars of this world. They glitter and shine and
appeal to many.
“Then
there are those who hear My Voice and will not follow another. They are willing
to follow the little, despicable and lowly leaders I put in their lives. You
will always encounter this Beloved, it is your nature, and the nature of souls
to respect and admire bright stars. But I am doing something new and unheard
of, I am choosing the lowly and rejected to raise up My Broken Body. Because
they are so little, they put no trust in themselves, rather they cling to Me so
very tightly that they are not lured by what appears to be great leaders.
“Yes,
I do have great leaders, but it is a treacherous road with robbers lurking
behind every bend. Pride, influence, power, self-righteousness, wealth and
adulation are the armed bandits that plot to take such as these down. It is
only a matter of time before they will be confronted with a choice: Compromise
just a little bit or lose it all. If they do choose to lose it all, their
people will be scandalized. That is why I prefer little and despicable over the
Christian celebrities. Oh Clare, that road is so very treacherous and many,
many, fall from that height landing below in the canyon as you once saw,”
And
what He is talking about here is a canyon- from one side to the other there is
a leap to be made, and it is about twelve feet, and a lot of people tried to
make that leap and did not make it and ended up falling into the canyon,
shattered.
He
continued, “No one wants to make a leap that will cause them to bestripped of
everything they have accumulated, good name, fame, money, influence, security.”
Lord,
please, I do not want any of my own thoughts to dominate. Am I projecting
something out of bitterness?
The
Lord continued, “The bitterness you are feeling is in My Heart for those who
look squeaky clean on the outside but are double minded, and those who have
made deals with the devil. I promise you, when you reach that pinnacle of
greatness, you will be faced with a choice, adopt the agenda or lose it all.
That is what I am bitter about. You experienced this when you introduced your
very large YouTube audience to My mother.
“No,
you are not projecting yourself through this message, it is My broken and
bitter heart you are projecting.”
I
paused, for a while, really thought about this because it is so easy to fall
into bitterness. It is so easy, and I wanted to make sure that that was not
what I was doing. So, I had my head down and I was contemplating what He said,
And He became visible to the eyes of my heart and said to me,
“You
have done nothing wrong; you are in My perfect will, I approve of you one
hundred percent, the scorn and contempt is coming from souls who are operating
from their flesh. I like you little and frail, having to apologize for your
missteps or perceived missteps, I can lead you Clare, because you see all too
clearly your frailty and lack of perfection.
“I
am so sorry for those who have set you aside to follow those I did not appoint
to lead them. Let it go, forgive, move forward, there is so much good waiting
for you just around the corner. I promise you; it is not your fault. And like
it or not, you have been chosen by Me for this humble work that is way beyond
your skill level. Please do not fret.”
And
that was the end of His message.
Well,
my dear ones, it is encouraging to me to hear the Lord straighten out the
tangled things that have been running through my mind. And you know, a lot has
been going on with us, we have been sending missionaries to Africa and boy, I
will tell you, that airfare is something else!
Wow!
So, it has been a real strain on our budget, along with needing to straighten
some things out in the building, the church that the Lord has given us. It is
putting a real tax on our income, it is putting a real burden on our income,
and we are low right now.
So,
I am asking for those of you who can help a little bit, would you please, if
you can?
And
for those of you who cannot contribute, please pray for us, pray for our
donors, that the enemy will not get in and hurt our donors.
I
appreciate your prayers so much, I have all the confidence in the world that
what the Lord is leading us to do, He will provide, but I wanted to mention
this to you just so you knew about it.
The
Lord bless you, my dear family. I cherish you; I love you, and I am praying for
you.
